my attempt at completely controlling my life had, in fact, caused me to lose control over it.

stoicism. If it’s outside your control, don’t bother too much. Face your challenges and do the best you can, being a better you.

grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

https://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-17613/10-signs-fear-is-running-your-life-and-how-to-get-back-on-track.html